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October 31 StressBoring day, another boring day. For some reason, me and my class were pulled to a talk on a stress around 11am. Its lame actually, the whole presentation i mean.
Did the survey they gave us, proof that i'm not stress. Yeh, i'm not stress enough i guess. Then they ask one question, do you hope to lead a stress-less life? I thought in my heart, no. If there's no stress, that means no rival for your goals, so whats the meaning of life anyway if its like that. So something stress is not as bad as you guys think. Its always good to have a reasonable amount of stress. Really, trust me. However too much will make yourself go berserk and crazy, so better watch yourself.
Anyway, was in class, thinking of finding someone to talk to through sms. Cause you see, during the pass few days i really need someone to talk to, about some stuff. Really, this stuff has been bugging me for quite sometime... Making me feel really, i would say emo. But still its under my control so as not to expose/show to the people around me.
And, i think i gonna switch my course to DDM, wasn't sure if i mention this before, but nvm. Diplomo In Design Media.
Nothing much to say, and i still have no ideas on how to design that shakugan no shana wallpaper that i'm currently holding onto. Will post a picture of the completed pieces here when i'm done with. October 30 Teaching Is So TiringOk people, do not blame the teachers if they scold you, force you to listen in class or force you to pass up ur homework. its good for you, and its tiring for them.
This morning, have a hard time teaching around 5 to 6 people. Everyone just keep rushing me... Actually, i hope i can just tell them i don't know how to do and take a rest. The experience of teaching most of them who did not listen in class are the worst... (i'm not refering to those that listen and still dun quite understand) Anyway, after teaching so many, i suddenly have a slight dizzy and my head start to feel pain. i then decide to ignore them and take a rest. I have to explain the whole stupid thing so many times, how come they just listen when i explain to one of them.
So being teacher is very tiring, try not to let ur teachers have a hard time, it might make them faint.
Time passed so fast in ITE and its like what, 6 months more till poly time? After so long i still can't get use to the uniform, still hate to wear it.
I just would like to say, i learn alot during this 2 years of "under-graded" life. I learn that, there is always things to learn, never ending, even though u might thinking you have master the topic or module.
There's no love within me, there's always flirt in me. I had always wanted to seal the flirt part away, but recently it just like, starting to break. Need time to seal it back i guess...
Except for the anime part, i think i might have grown a little mature through the life of ITE.
Still... deciding on the course for poly... October 29 Tired And SlackMet a friend today on the bus. Asked him on some opinion on choosing design course. He asked me to go for TP since its the best design school in singapore. Thought about it as well, but i have no idea where the hell tp is at... Then other than that i asked on the stressness in poly. And he told me that its not as stress as i think it is. He told me to just chiong during the 2 weeks of study week and i should be fine. Pretty slack idea huh, then i asked on his gpa and surprisingly he said... 3.1 3.7 and 3.9. WTF? i hope i can get those scores in poly... over 3 and i'm happy already... Orite so, i think i'll stick by to Singapore Poly Interior Design. Yes, i'm interested in it and Singapore poly rocks, except for the food part. Was suppose to go NYP, just because of one stupid reason last time, but now i dun gif a dam. Orite anyway SP for me. Very tired today, PLCC is lame (Programable Logic Circuit Controller), keep teaching the same stuff for the pass few sem... after plcc is PE, which i used the time to play badminton... and i just found out i can't play badminton after so long of resting time... Then maths lesson, same old thing, thats wat i hate about it, mdm mak will keep teaching the same thing just because some student wasn't here... its like, no fair? wasting my time... we just keep doing the same thing over and over again... But overall she's a good teacher, too good thats why she bother to re-explain the whole thing. But she can teach well, just one explaination and i can finish the whole chapter. 3rd day already, still no reply from the message, wonder if she receive it, and ignore it, or just did not receive it... October 28 RealizedMessaged last night, no replies. I'm really thinking too much huh? Its impossible... I might just realize... Anyway suppose to be a boring day today, but then was told that there will be swimming at around 4pm, so used the computer, watch show, watch anime, play game... Nothing much. Very boring day, i hope can just have the mood to finish the next topic of Bridging maths given by the ngee ann lecturer. But well i'm just too lazy... So, somehow time reached 4pm, and then i was told again the time changed to 4.30. So... slack around, dun even feel like touching my psp... So 4.30 reached i went out and wait. 3 of us reached at around 4.35, then while waiting for the last one, the sky suddenly turn dark. We conclude that it's gonna rain soon. So when the 4th one reached at around 5pm, we decide to just eat. Then... i was then force to watch a movie... even though i dun wan too, (but the movie was not bad). If she knew this she will kill me... since i told her i dun like to watch movie. So watched <Brothers>. Its suppose to be a serious movie, but me and my group end up maknig fun of the story from the beginning to the end. O ya... i just realise, why i wanted to create a blog... So i can receive comments, so people can share their mind with me... but mainly because, i felt lonely. So should i just go for it, or just quit it, the answer is clear... after i go through this fog. October 27 Whole Day Just Playing, And thinking...Wake up in the morning, called niger... messaged fai.. no reply from both. Then i know, this will be a very boring saturday... Near 12pm then i decide to head to my cousin house and play.
Just 3 cousins gathering and playing psp together. Nothing much. Played dota, trained my world of warcraft character for a level. O ya, if anyone wanna play world of warcraft for free in a private server feel free to message me in msn. Orite anyway back to the topic. Played Bleach HTS4, Medal Of Honor Online. Ate chicken chop for dinner, a small cup of ice cream and 1 can of drink.
Thought of the problem which just emerge yesterday, still does not have 100% answer... Hope i can have someone to discuss it with... someone who won't spread and won't just treat it as a joke, someone who can hear me out and help me out.
Afraid to make the decision. Afraid of the outcome. Afraid to lose whats now. Afraid, fear, these thing are so stupid, why do they even exist.
Nevermind out of this problem. Interior Design, heard from 1 of my cousin that its like designing a room, which seems quite lame, but then again, it might be interesting, but then again and again... might have a hard time finding job. So really, i still need more opinion choosing the right course...
So that makes 2 matters which i need help from, 1 is my "problem" the other is choosing the correct course.
Anyway, it takes 2 hand to clap, so, i really need help. Same goes for BGR October 26 Boring DayAm in school now, waiting for the time to reach 12.30 or even later. In the library, nothing to do, just surfing on the poly courses that i can take.
Just happen to pass by this course, interior design, avaliable in nanyang poly and singapore poly. Quite interested in this, not really sure what it is as well. Looks like a general designing base course isntead of forcusing on one type of design. I always wanted to go in the course that teaches how to design buildings, but maybe there's too hard for me. So i saw this course. If anyone noe what it is, please tell me.
The worst thing is, i can only enter 1st year of the course, which means, i have to study 3 years more after i graduate. Which is... what the hell... But no choice, since i'm in ITE now. But with a perfect score now, i can choose any course i want, so i should really think about what course i should choose... Bascially i hope to choose a design course... But then again, i'm not much of a creative guy. Previous of my designs are just taken from other people works and combine them together with another to so call call it "mine". But this isn''t what i wanted to do. i wan to be able to come up with my own ideas.
Sad day again.
Today went for my first lesson call the JCU, it says career development or something like that. The teacher ask to write something on a piece of paper and then she will say out, what's our personality and what type of job we can actually do. I was told that i tend to spend money "un-wisely" which i believe wasn't quite true for now. But then again, cause i wanted to buy this figure from an anime which cost $102+, maybe i really spend my money for useless stuff.
I was told i was hardworking. Yeh? actually i think i'm still far from hardworking as compare to my cousin. During exam i can still play games instead of studying for the whole day.
Anyway, its reaching 12.30 when i'm typing till here. Another boring day. Maybe i should just stop gonig to Ngee Ann for the Bridging maths lesson. But wait. NO way, i promise my teacher to go and i shall not break that promise.
Part2:
Return from ngee ann, saw simone there before entering. Then shu xin message me, she says tat simone call her and tell her i'm in ngee ann. Anyway so i went to class. then we decide to meet when she's dismiss at around 3pm, so well no harm, so lets meet, since i haven't seen her for quite sometime. She changed, changed for the better i guess. after that i just follow her till the 1st floor and then i return to my class, so i won't take too long to return to class.
Quite happy to see her. Orite now, what was i thinking? Nvm... Better to keep somethings in the heart than to say it out sometime. October 25 Long DayWake up 5.30, play game for an hour, and went out to school this morning. Again the same old stupid project lesson which last for a duration of 5 hours. At least my team helpped me today, ok 2 member from my team. I was preparing the report for the pass 4 hours while they handle the car robot and design it. Simply just too tired to move after i finish my report planning. YES, just PLANNING.
Anyway after my lesson, i have a car lesson at around 3.20. And i was late for about 5 mins, i hate being late. I thought i will be using a new car today since the car number is 44. Then when i went to get my car, they told me that car is sent to the workshop for repair and i end up using an old car 88... WTH? The instructor who teach me today was not bad, just a little too impatient. Made a few mistake when doing directional change and reversing and he's like "OMFG? Look behind, turn correct blah blah". But afterall he's still ok, but i won't reccomend booking him, his ID is 5071.
After that, the lesson end at 5.20, yup 2 hours. Then receive a sms from this girl, thought finally i won't eat dinner alone, but then i see the message is 20 mins ago... when i message her again, she's already near her house. Too bad... gonna pack home and eat.
Why i decide to start a blog here?
Lazy to make a new one, so just simply use a layout here.
Why I decide to start a blog?
Actually i told myself not to start a blog ever since that happen. Not sure about the reason though but should be my previous blog that cause the problem between a friend of mine last time. Regret it... If i have the chance, and the courage to say face to face to her, i'll just say i'm sorry.
Anyway i just decide to start this to try out my typing speed and just to waste some time entering all these words i'm current typing like abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. |
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