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December 29 Sakuya Vector ColoringOk, took around from 8pm + to near 11pm to finish coloring her. Decide to color her in haruhi style. Here's it :)
Its not very neat at some part of the drawings, but it's the neatest i can make so far...
Here's a simpl chart i made on how i came up with everything step by steps.
Thinking DayFew days left before the next year starts. Thinking about wat i have done this year.
I manage to get 2 more 4gpa this year, which intotal gave me 3x 4gpa. I'm happy about this, which now i have go in any poly with around 75% course of my choice as long as its not business base.
I manage to learn how to use a pen tool for adobe photoshop and have been brushing up my skills since that. Will show a piece of my work using pen tool in the later portion.
I manage to understand Vocaloid 2, Hatsune Miku version, machine 01. But still i lack the knowledge of basic music notes reading. I'll work on it and post my complete work if i manage to complete 1 song.
If i remember correctly, i also got my psp this year. which i didn't regret much as it really accompany me through alot.
I started on my Car License taking this year too. Passed basic on first try, final first try. and now i hope i can finish my pratical in the first try too. On march 12 or 14, wish me luck!
This year i also decide to go for a girl which i kinda like for a year but did not take any action since i believe i was till affected by another girl.
And during the same year i was rejected =.=""
Nonetheless during this same year, i was somehow changing to bad impression in her. For dunno wat reason which i duno.
O ya and, this year i never cry. sound stupid.
This year for 2 terms, i work hard for quite a number of stuff. including studies and it paid off. And for that girl, which effort is pour into the drain.
So and, watched a number of new anime this year as well. Let me name out.
School days
Lucky star [Best, must watch]
Higurashi no naku koro ni /kai [Very nice show]
Kakyusei [watched 1 episode and then stopped]
Shuffle!
Hayate no gotoku [Funny]
Haruhi suzumiya
Shakugan no shana
Stuff i regret doing or not doing.
-> For buying Tsubasa book 16 - 20 taiwan version. [It takes singapore 1 year and a half to come out with book 16...]
-> For changing to "FIL" mode [fall in love] [Well its over now, its neutral mode now]
-> For not using fully of my time
-> and maybe, for not going germany?
Orite so i wish that for the new year i can make fully use of my time, and acquire another 4 gpa, and hope to have $1200 from the school because of my result, and then, maybe manage to find a girl that just like her.
And so, this is wat i do today while thinking my 2007. I present Sakuya, character from Hayate no gotoku! [ i think the result comes out quite nice]
 Sad to say i took from morning 12 to 6pm to complete this, i gonna color it tomorrow. I hope its good, its my first test draft after i learn how to use a pen in adobe photoshop. If anyone [which i think not] wants a high quality of this picture, just message me in msn. I'll try to finish up the coloring by tomorrow or hopfully before new year and post it here. Ok as for now, picture of the day. Chrismas Wishes December 28 Tiring Day [Yesterday]morning we should have been playing badminton, but instead we end up with basket ball since we onli have 1 racket. I won
t say i'm playing since i dun even noe how to play.
After that we went around woodlands by walking... from one spot to another... from one to another... After that finally we end up playing badminton in rp at around 730 night. Finished at around 9.15...
Well i no i'm not good with sports and doesn't have stamina due to my body problem. But still when i'm told i'm weak and sux all this, sometime i still can't stand it if they keep repeating it.. Like yesterday.
So yesterday morning i took sometime to finish a wallpaper. so its picture for the day.
Musical World  December 25 Vocaloid 2 Hatsune Miku [No. 1]Ok yeh, finally get my hands on the software Vocaloid 2. Its a kind of software that you can configurate or change the voice of a certain girl the company has created.
This is one good example i found.
I'm not about the background music. But i noe that the voice is created by the user. I'm currently researching on how to use it, hope i can come up with something by 6 months =.=. More samples of the voice are at the official website, http://www.crypton.co.jp/mp/pages/prod/vocaloid/cv01.jsp. Scroll to the bottom and there'll be 3 button to choose from.
O ya btw, this little girl is call Hatsune Miku [初音ミク] She's the first model/character from the vocaloid 2 series. The 2nd character, which will be release in around janurary if i remember correctly is Kagamine Rin [鏡音リン]. more information are here, http://www.crypton.co.jp/mp/pages/prod/vocaloid/cv02.jsp.
I'm so attracted by the character and decide to make a theme for my psp base on her. But now i have onli come up with the wallpaper.
As so, picture of the day Hatsune Miku, not really a wallpaper. 初音ミク December 22 Worst DayI dunno wat to say, its like the worst day of my life today. I was being so, how do i say, so stupid? Just because some girl did not talk to me for like the 3rd day?
1st 2 days i was sick so did not have the chance to meet up with my friend. Then today for some reason, i was quite down, due to the fact she still, ignore me. Was told by TB she went genting. Can't talk about it too much. Or everyone will go out of the sequence.
Actually, i wanted to tell tb about it, but then again, in order not to mess up anything, i shall just keep quiet. About what? i won't mention.
So anyway, quite down nowadays, wonder if thats the reason i'm so weak these 3 days. I won't really be surprised if i just die straight away. Since i'm weak and can just die anytime.
O ya, rather than all this shit. i made a simple avatar for myself, since i believe that my friendster do not have much of photos of myself. and since i'm just plain ugly i have to edit the background of the picture to make it more attractive. (PS: i did edit my own face) So here's it, its not picture of the day of course.
And so for picture of the day, from the anime Code Geases. i dunno the name of the picture so i'll just name it as the character name. C.C. December 20 For some reasonFor some reason i was ignored b her, when she can still chat with other people in msn. Well for some reason i noe.
For some reason, i hope she was afk, thats why she can't reply. For some reason, i noe its not like this.
She's starting ti ignore me, maybe, or am i just thinking too much. Which ever is the case, i dun like this feeling. I can't be like others, forget and let go. I can't just move on after forgetting one. Took me sometime from my 1st one. And now this happen.
So i'm gonna go buy my hamster later. decide to enter an early blog just in case something happen later. Gonna get 2 winter white.
Flipped through my magic the gathering trading cards. Looking at how much i spend on each piece of card, which is like a cardboard. $25, $10 x 4, $8 x 4. $12 x 4. The pirces for just 13 of the card, can reach up to $100 already, i spent like over 100 for 60 piece of card.
Finally getting my adobe photoshop cs 3 rdy, gonna do some editing soon after i finish installing it.
Picture of the day, from the anime rozen maiden.
Winter Miracle  December 18 Boring Day Of The HolidayHaiz, messaged her in the morning, but no reply from her. i already prepared with all my stuff and clothes. Around 10.30 there's still no news from her.
Messaged her a few times, its ok if she over slept, but around 12 there's still no reply from her, which starts to worrys me. I dunno what to do, i told myself to cool down and relax. Not thinking too much, thinking on the bright side. I hope nothing happen to her.
My friend told me this, if someone dun like you, it doesn't matter what you do, the fact won't change. While another tell me, find the right time to strike and she's yours. I dun even noe who to believe. But in the end i still think the natural way. I'll just slowly step by step, just trying to get closer.
So today went to eat pizza hut, ordered and wait for 10mins, then our 1st baked rice came, we ordered 3. After like 20 mins, there's still no trace of 2nd and 3rd one. We told the waiter, and as a penatly, we got a galic bread for free. Around 10 mins later, our 2nd baked rice came, onli 2nd. We joked that we will wait long again and we will get drumstick for free. Well 20 mins pass and nothing came. We asked again, and this time, we got honey chicken wing for free. wth?
Its quite a feast today, got 2 things for free. Anyway, the baked rice is good, should try it out when got a chance.
Picture of the day, from the anime Chobits.
Urraca
 December 16 Marks The Start Of HolidayGuess what, its the start of the holiday. Boring holiday, how come ite can't just push all the lesson into a year so i can enter poly asap... now i miss out 2 years... sian.
i was given her blog, but i can't read it, i mean i won't read it. cause i do not have the permission to read it.
So i was invited to my friend house for a pool session. I dunno, should i even go, i got this feeling that, it will be the same as when i went to the cell group last time. Its like, everyone's a stranger to me except for 1 or 2. Really, i dunno what to do already.
I'm the one that's thinking too much?
I'm the one who's making myself think like this?
I'm the one who hates this kind of thinking.
I'm lost, ever since i lost that group of friends.
Picture of the day, not from any anime i think... reminds me of. that day.
That Day  December 13 I really... dunno what to do Haiz, really, i dunno what to do now... I had this same feeling few years back... a strong one. What should i do? the problem is, i'm no good at jio-ing girls, she dun believe me, and ya, she told me she dun have that feel on me. For some reason, i still try to talk to her. For some reason, i like her. I dunno who to share this with, but just keeping inside will make me die. I'm afraid i might make her annoyed, i'm afraid the same thing will happen again, but then again i'm afraid of losing her. When i see other male message in her inbox, i'll feel jealous. Why do i have this kind of thing the 2nd time? I told myself i'm not suppose to even feel a bit of it. Cause last time this happen, i lost someone. Ok other then these, my computer virus is really deadly now, i needa reformat soon. can't even upload a picture now for picture of the day. So i guess i'll just use some previous one i uploaded. Done By me, from the game. Zero. Digital Zero  December 12 Shine There was once a guy who liked a girl. The guy was from America while the girl is a Japaneses. Before the guy return to his country, he gave the girl a letter. Inside containing onli a word "Shine". Few months later, the guy return to the place where the girl lives. The girl have committed suicide on the day he leaves. The guy thought it was someone in the family that cause her death. He killed 2 of them, after that, he was caught by the detective and the policeman. He was then told by the detective. "Shine" in japanese is read as "Shi-Ne" which means Death. In the police car, the guy just keep repeating this... "Why am i not a japanese? Why is she not an amcerican? why am i not a japanese?...." Well got this story from a manga, quite sad. Shine really is a different word in japanese. This is 1 of my favourite story in the manga. By the way its detective conan. Suppose to be a busy day today, but since i needa go out later at night, i decide to just quickly finish everything so i can meet her later. Met her at around 6.15. To my surprise, i really dunno that that was her. Shock then... Guess everyone changes, for the better i guess. Guess i still have problem with words infront of her. Can only talk better through msn or sms. i hope i can just talk normally next time. Cause there's some stuff i want to say, but then, no guts i would say. Ok, picture of the day, again not from any anime. Pink Petal  December 11 Should i even Nowadays i was busy thats why didn't have the chance to update my blog. Was thinking, should i even be sad, even if days still goes on. Should i even be sad, even if everything still remains the same. Should i even cry, when nothing changes because of my tears. The answer is, Yes. I realise that, for the pass few years i was wrong, i kept all the sad things to myself, no one to talk to, no one to share with. But now, when i start thinking about some things previously. The chat log with her during 2006 may. Its an important one, yet, i can't open it. I can't delete it either, i dun wan to. I dun wan to open it too, cause i can't. I can't stand reading it, so basically its just a file there's sitting alone there. That's 1 of the thing, which is the source of my emotions. After entering ITE, i found out that, i can't really talk to girls now. Not sure about the reason, but might be that. I can't like talk naturally, like how i talk last time. The rain symbolizes sadness, yet carrys an aura of purification, an attempt to clean up the earth, to purify everything, to wash away the thoughts. "i like being in the rain" she told me. Maybe, ya... i like it in the rain as well. Cause there's once, when i was in the rain with someone. Who teaches me alot of stuff... So for today, picture of the day, Not from any anime. Purity  December 04 Useless<Its not that you are useless thats why u can't do anything, its because that you can't do anything thats why you are useless.>
I found out that today, when something happen to my family. I'm standing in the living room, have no idea what to do, what i can only do is stand there... It's because i dunno what to do, thats why i stand there... its not that i noe wat to do... i just stand there... Hoping to solve everything, i stand there. Not knowing how to solve, i stand there.
I have no idea what i should do, i have no idea what i can do... i have no idea... what is wrong with my family.
i knew something like this will come soon, from what i noe for the pass few days, but no knowing its now, i feel so useless... I rush home from 1 mrt station to another; running all the way, taking like 5s break every 1min i run, after i receive my sister message. I dunno what to do, what i hope to do is reach home fast.
When i reach home, i saw my sis crying, knowing that its much more serious then last time, i went out of the room, i sat with my father. Not knowing what to talk. Not knowing what to do...
So, i'm just useless... how i hope i can share the pain, how i hope i won't see all this... how i hope... i'm not born here, to watch all these... Not knowing who to share this with, who i can share my feelings with, i share with you, readers of my blog, not even knowing who will read, i wrote.
So picture of the day, pure black and white, emotionless. from the anime XxX Holic.
B&W Butterfly  December 03 3rd Day Of The MonthI found out i have been more and more lazy nowadays, to school work that it. My whole world is going chaos now, i'm worry about this, then later that... Some about my own self, but mostly my family.
My sister have been repeating that she want to buy a camera that cost like $1000+, not those type of digital camera, but those type of so call "professional" cameras. What she buy for i dunno, if she can just buy the normal type of camera that normal girls would bring, i have no objection, but wth? I told some of my friends this and yes, they agree that she's mad. My mother have been trying to talk her to her sense for the pass few month but she just dun understand.
She's always the one that makes our whole family go crazy for a day. I always try to make things up but changing topics but after that she will make everyone mad again. I was thinking, is she suppose to be my family? Is it better off without her?
Next, from what i can sense,see and hear. For the pass few months, my parents relationship or feelings between each other gets worse. I dunno what i can do, i'm worry. The only thing i can do is keep going out and try to ignore everyything that is at home and have fun. I really, i felt so stress up. I no longer can concentrate on my studies. My family is in chaos.
Then again my own problem. Ok nvm... its not that important, i just hope everything can stay fine. Till i go in poly, till i finish uni, till i start to earn money... till i get enough money to buy my parents big houses, cars and what ever they wan. I dun need anything, just them...
Ok so picture of the day, from the anime Shakugan No Shana.
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